As I sit here and fret about how I could’ve saved $3 on my baby wrap project, I am reminded how I always put myself in this position. Waiting, waiting, waiting, procrastinating until the opportunity I had in the palm of my hands passes me by.
Oh sure, it took me no time to pick out the car that I’ve been waiting on for seven weeks because I didn’t want to be car-less (what’s the irony in that, ha), but when it comes to making money decisions, minor or major, that require me to spend my little money, I drag it out, and often miss out because I didn’t take heed to the sign to go ahead and ACT NOW! And, while that extra half yard of fabric might do me some good, as it may allow some experimentation on something else like a matching hat (my point being it won’t go to waste), it’s made me wonder if that same attitude leaks over into my ability to make money as well.
I have mentioned continuously on this blog, or at least over the past seven weeks (let’s say it together…) I’ve been waiting on a car and, perhaps going slightly stir crazy. I’ve said it so much I can’t recall if I’ve mentioned the opportunity it’s given me to a) even become crafty and attempt to make baby stuff, order fabrics, etc., and b) given me the opportunity to delve into this book I was introduced to by my girl Stephanie D., The Marketing Maven via her Marketing Maven show on iTunes. A few weeks back she interviewed Kate Northrup about her new book Money: A Love Story, and boy has reading it been the biggest blessing to my being stuck at home. Mainly because, unlike when I read many other financial or self-help books, I am actually doing the work. And really was encouraged to do it by Kate herself a midst her admittance that, just like me, a lot of times we think that is such a small part, and that we’ve got it all together and don’t need “that much” help, when really we end up neglecting the biggest step to helping ourselves.
Doing the work has always been an issue for me, though I don’t like to admit it, which is why I was comforted in knowing that I’m not alone. And when I say doing the work, I don’t mean studiously, or anything like that, I mean actually taking the ACTION steps that will help me increase myself, mostly financially. For some reason spiritually that’s not been the same problem. Which is why, I assume this book has been such an encouragement to me, because it is connecting my spirituality to my money. Another part of that though, is acting upon things as they arise intuitively. See for the last four years, since I lost my stability, in the form of being fired from my job, having kids, all the things that shake up our lives, I’ve felt like I’ve lost control. This car situation too, has allowed me to view, from another perspective, how I’ve given up a lot of my control as well. I’ve had to become a dependent of sorts on other people, from my children’s father to my parents because I just don’t have the finances. And the one thing that has been eating me for the past four years to at least try is Internet Marketing. But, in steps that lack of ACTION thing again.
What I really tend to do is over think things so much that I talk myself out of trying them. And then the other day I ran across some information that said that what this really is is talking ourselves out of our own freedom. And so, perhaps that was the blessing in losing my stability, all this time I’ve neglected to see, its been to make me free because I won’t take ACTION. So, as I fret over those $3, I’ve finally decided to follow this desire that keeps eating away at me daily, joining this Internet Marketing group called Wealthy Affiliate. Am I afraid to spend this $19 for the first 30 days? HELL YES!! Mainly because I know my own track record and secondly because the only internet access I have is via my telephone. Especially since I really can’t sit in the library with two loud active toddlers, and don’t have a vehicle to drive to my parents house to “borrow” theirs. Could it be a dumb decision and I end up regretting it? HELL YEAH. But over the past four years wondering if I could be holding the key to being free, spiritually and financially and just avoiding it has been eating me up so much that I’m at the point where I’m about to bust. So guess what, I’m finally desperate enough to want some say so in my life, to feel like I’m raising my children and interacting with them the way I want to, that I’m willing to do what might even seem stupid to at least try.
I’ll invite you to join me on this journey countless times, starting with today. And hey, if it takes you four years just like it’s taken me, to at least try it for free, at least you’ll know you’re not alone. But me, I’m ready to build my own feeling of home and TAKE ACTION to do it. You want to join me? Follow this link http://goo.gl/DY9q6 and find me, or take your own free tour around. Me though, I’m making myself bound to taking action to make money, and you can follow me on this journey just by reading my entries if you’d like. I’ll let you know though, if you are anywhere near as tired as me of having to wait on people (for things like a car) or answer to people for wanting to be who you are, then this is a great way to get a sense of control of yourself.