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Well That’s What Procrastination Will Get You!

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As I sit here and fret about how I could’ve saved $3 on my baby wrap project, I am reminded how I always put myself in this position. Waiting, waiting, waiting, procrastinating until the opportunity I had in the palm of my hands passes me by.

Oh sure, it took me no time to pick out the car that I’ve been waiting on for seven weeks because I didn’t want to be car-less (what’s the irony in that, ha), but when it comes to making money decisions, minor or major, that require me to spend my little money, I drag it out, and often miss out because I didn’t take heed to the sign to go ahead and ACT NOW! And, while that extra half yard of fabric might do me some good, as it may allow some experimentation on something else like a matching hat (my point being it won’t go to waste), it’s made me wonder if that same attitude leaks over into my ability to make money as well.

I have mentioned continuously on this blog, or at least over the past seven weeks (let’s say it together…) I’ve been waiting on a car and, perhaps going slightly stir crazy. I’ve said it so much I can’t recall if I’ve mentioned the opportunity it’s given me to a) even become crafty and attempt to make baby stuff, order fabrics, etc., and b) given me the opportunity to delve into this book I was introduced to by my girl Stephanie D., The Marketing Maven via her Marketing Maven show on iTunes. A few weeks back she interviewed Kate Northrup about her new book Money: A Love Story, and boy has reading it been the biggest blessing to my being stuck at home. Mainly because, unlike when I read many other financial or self-help books, I am actually doing the work. And really was encouraged to do it by Kate herself a midst her admittance that, just like me, a lot of times we think that is such a small part, and that we’ve got it all together and don’t need “that much” help, when really we end up neglecting the biggest step to helping ourselves.

Doing the work has always been an issue for me, though I don’t like to admit it, which is why I was comforted in knowing that I’m not alone. And when I say doing the work, I don’t mean studiously, or anything like that, I mean actually taking the ACTION steps that will help me increase myself, mostly financially. For some reason spiritually that’s not been the same problem. Which is why, I assume this book has been such an encouragement to me, because it is connecting my spirituality to my money. Another part of that though, is acting upon things as they arise intuitively. See for the last four years, since I lost my stability, in the form of being fired from my job, having kids, all the things that shake up our lives, I’ve felt like I’ve lost control. This car situation too, has allowed me to view, from another perspective, how I’ve given up a lot of my control as well. I’ve had to become a dependent of sorts on other people, from my children’s father to my parents because I just don’t have the finances. And the one thing that has been eating me for the past four years to at least try is Internet Marketing. But, in steps that lack of ACTION thing again.

What I really tend to do is over think things so much that I talk myself out of trying them. And then the other day I ran across some information that said that what this really is is talking ourselves out of our own freedom. And so, perhaps that was the blessing in losing my stability, all this time I’ve neglected to see, its been to make me free because I won’t take ACTION. So, as I fret over those $3, I’ve finally decided to follow this desire that keeps eating away at me daily, joining this Internet Marketing group called Wealthy Affiliate. Am I afraid to spend this $19 for the first 30 days? HELL YES!! Mainly because I know my own track record and secondly because the only internet access I have is via my telephone. Especially since I really can’t sit in the library with two loud active toddlers, and don’t have a vehicle to drive to my parents house to “borrow” theirs. Could it be a dumb decision and I end up regretting it? HELL YEAH. But over the past four years wondering if I could be holding the key to being free, spiritually and financially and just avoiding it has been eating me up so much that I’m at the point where I’m about to bust. So guess what, I’m finally desperate enough to want some say so in my life, to feel like I’m raising my children and interacting with them the way I want to, that I’m willing to do what might even seem stupid to at least try.

I’ll invite you to join me on this journey countless times, starting with today. And hey, if it takes you four years just like it’s taken me, to at least try it for free, at least you’ll know you’re not alone. But me, I’m ready to build my own feeling of home and TAKE ACTION to do it. You want to join me? Follow this link¬†http://goo.gl/DY9q6 and find me, or take your own free tour around. Me though, I’m making myself bound to taking action to make money, and you can follow me on this journey just by reading my entries if you’d like. I’ll let you know though, if you are anywhere near as tired as me of having to wait on people (for things like a car) or answer to people for wanting to be who you are, then this is a great way to get a sense of control of yourself.

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Yeeaah Its Monday! Wait, Why Am I So Excited?

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I don’t recall ever looking forward to Monday. EVER. Lately though, I get excited about it’s approach. Its not like I have huge plans on Mondays. I mean I look forward to all of my commentary on my favorite sports shows of the college football games from the previous weekend, but other than that, there’s not really much to be excited about. Especially lately, since, like I’ve stated previously, I’ve been without a car for the past five weeks, which means no midday rides if needed. Really it means no going anywhere at all. So why am I so amped, pumped about Monday?

Perhaps it’s because while other people are dreading heading to work and such, I am busy creating my days. Visualizing the way I want to live, how I see life and Monday on some strange scale represents my freedom to do that. The fact that I’m not rushing up and in the shower, though I do have two toddlers to tend to, so it’s not like I’m sleeping all day. Maybe its that they haven’t gotten in school like I’d hoped, but it doesn’t stop them from learning, doesn’t halt my desire to teach them. Hmmmm, what’s it become about Monday? I just can’t figure this one.

A month ago I was crying about not being able to get a job, rush my kids to school and go earn a little check with an early Monday morning start to my week. As I began to ponder the shift in my energy, it took me back to my vision board. I did one based on all the information that had begun flowing my way from listening to Wayne Dyer and Louise Hay everyday. And, as I don’t have it with me, I’m still able to see clearly the visuals I posted, the declarations of the destiny I desire to create and all of a sudden it links to my Monday feeling.

While I haven’t created the income stream I’m dreaming of just yet, I feel it getting closer. On the other hand the things that are coming to fruition are doing so because I’ve been able to sit still, finally seeing the gratitude in not having any wheels. Because I know that when I do get them, I’ll be able to be my children’s best teacher, just as I declared on my board at a discount price or for free, if we visit the library like the schedule I’ve had time to plan over the last few weeks. Its like now when I see Monday upon me, I see all the new possibilities being presented in my life. And I say bring it on, bring it on many, many more Mondays.

How Ya Like THAT For A Win?

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So, I’ve been without a vehicle for the past five weeks, having been in an accident back in July that totaled out my car. While I have a car coming from auction, it seems like it’s taking forever to get here, as some work had to be done on it before it’s to be delivered. In the meantime, my 2 and 3 year olds, along with a very pregnant me have been stuck in the house going stir crazy.

Before I was as big as I am, we could walk to the park for them to play as we live in very close proximity. But, as luck would have it, for them anyway, walking around the neighborhood has been a difficult activity for us to partake in as we live in a very hilly area. Like we live on a hill both front street and the alley we back up to and then hills galore from there. If you’ve ever visited Birmingham, AL you know exactly what I mean.

With the kids out of the house visiting MiMi for a couple of days, I decided that I’d had enough of going stir crazy all by myself. Needing dishwashing liquid for both finishing the dishes and fulfilling my craving, (I suffer from Pica during my pregnancies because of low iron which causes me to crave some strange substances, mostly cleaning products, soaps, laundry detergent, etc. Of course I don’t eat them but I do enjoy the smell of them so I clean and wash quite often, but that’s another story.) I decided forget it, I’m by myself, I’ll go ahead and walk to the store.

When I started down the hill, the initial pull of gravity made me think perhaps I made a not so smart decision. But, as I reached level ground I began to feel a sense of empowerment, no longer trapped by my condition. And the fresh fall breeze made me ponder what else I could do that I’ve been reasoning myself not to. Like create a stream if income for myself since that was such a big part of my disappointment in my being pregnant in the first place. That I wouldn’t be able to get a job and make money.

And I began thinking about the recent Alabama football game against Ole Miss. How many commentators had already counted them out of the game declaring that Alabama’a team just didn’t look the same as it has in the previous two years when they’ve won national championships. But that Saturday they came out and dominated against an Ole Miss offense that was supposed to give them great trouble. And it made me curious about the process, as it is known by those who follow the coaching style of Nick Saban. One where he always speaks of enjoying the journey to always being better, competing with the doubts that can arise within yourself, overtaking them and persevering to reach a success you knew you could obtain if you just overcame whatever you may see as a road block.

So I searched out something, anything that showed him speaking on this and found a video that I want to share. It has encouraged me as the next step in my own science to get rich. To step beyond any limitations I’ve put on myself, to be creative and invest in seeing the outcome that I want financially.

Now I know there are a lot of people who don’t really care for Coach Saban. Heck, when I was a student at The University of Alabama we were often on the other side of his domination when he coached at LSU. But watching him take our program from what it was when I was there to where it is now, I haven’t been able to do anything but garner much respect for the man. So please, if you are a college football fan, allow yourself to really take in the message outside of that part of your person.

Until sooner rather than later, peace, love and blessings.

So I Took A Hiatus…Again

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So I’ve been away for a while for a couple of reasons. Mainly because this MisFunktional Mami has been trying to wrap her head around having another baby. That makes three under the age of four, and boy I tell you wrapping my head around that idea, already being overwhelmed as I am, sent me right back into a depressive state to the point where it just stopped me from speaking about coming into positivity. But now, after some inspiration from a few internet media moguls, I am ready to share my truth. My journey along the way. What has brought me to this point.

After six months I finally admitted not just to my family, but to myself, that yes, I am pregnant. And to be honest I really wanted to terminate the pregnancy initially. I know there are views on this and that statement could insite a riot, at least within, but when you’re feeling on the brink of broken, some options seems like the only way out. But now here I am, six months in, ¬†finally accepting…the baby.

My turmoil with my pregnancy had more to do with felling like I was just getting my life back on track than anything. I was finally ready to go back to work, and let my toddlers go to school. Finally healing from the changes that motherhood had brought to my idea of what my life would be as an adult, and accepting that. I’d just read in Louise Hay’s You Can Heal Your Life book that sometimes things happen to you more than once because of some deep rooted beliefs and ideals that you have. I’d been on birth control pills, which are hard to keep up with when keeping up with toddlers, and had considered the vaginal inserts, though I was unable to have them because of my C-sections, but was very against the patch, something that would be easier for me, because of exactly what she said, some deeply rooted belief about it. I’d finally decided though, that this would be the best option for me as I knew I just was not ready to have any more children.

As I waited for my next cycle, I was excited about this realization and about the new journey awaiting me on the other side of this decision. The new job, the “break” from being a mom all day long. So, this was the source of my discontentment when I learned that I was pregnant. Once I accepted it, however, albeit six months in, its like this journey actually started all over again. I began to once again feel like I could make forward progress towards at least some dreams in my life and, perhaps be my own inspiration that, even though the idea of something may seem difficult, it may end up being a testament to faith and endurance. The strength I didn’t know I possessed as a mother, a woman. I mean, even though I was ready to go back to work, my dreams of being an internet entrepreneur and real estate mogul weren’t going anywhere. And that is when, out of the blue, I was convinced to read a book…The Science of Getting Rich.

While the book focuses a lot on the mindset you need to become wealthy, it also helped me realize how I’d lost my own faith, my own trust in not just a universal power, but in MY word and the power within myself. For the past few years I’d been in such despair because of the transitions in my life, that I’d been depending on the word of others to get me out of situations, or help me along, make my road easier, instead of creating a new journey, a new road to my dreams and desires. So here I am, back, promising to be consistent because I am excited. Wanting to share my new positive outlook on something that at first seemed like such a set back. So, I’d like to share the audio of the book The Science of Getting Rich with you. I listened to this just as it instructed, as often as possible, as much as possible and it inspired me in a way I’m not sure I have words for. I hope it does the same for you.

Until my next post…sooner rather than later.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vM1wkzRl5ZA

It’s A New Monday!!

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All day yesterday, I was excited about today. Today is finally the day I’m making some changes in my life. I didn’t want to wait until Monday, since the decision stems from a last Thursday inspiration. But, Friday, when I tried, my patience wouldn’t let me. So I figured if I took the weekend and meditated on exactly what I’m doing, then Monday I would either buckle, or be so excited I’d be bursting to do it. And, I was right, normally I buckle, but today, I am excited about what the future will bring. I am stepping on the toes of fear and into my new destiny.

The way I’m talking about this you’d think it was some HUGE deal and not something I’m sure a lot of people do everyday. Especially mothers. Today I have decided to get my kids a membership to The Zoo and to The McWane Science Center. Yearly memberships. Meaning everyday for the next year, whenever we want to we can visit these places. Why is this a big deal you ask.

Well, becoming a mother has been a great transition for me. Wasn’t really sure what type of mother I would be, though I knew I wanted to be one who stayed at home for the early part of my children’s childhood. I was thrust into it after being fired from, probably the best part-time job anyone could have. Doing classified ads at the paper. And in that moment I went from confident to worrying so much about money, that for the past three years (my oldest just turned three on Nov. 2), I have stifled my mothering.

And so, last Thursday, as we watched Leap Frog thanks to Netflix, I decided, you know what, I must take action to be more active in their lives. Him along with my 17 month old. Forget the pressure of everyone around me telling me I need a job and need to send them to school. It IS my job to teach them everything I want them to know before they go into someone else’s classroom. And so we went out and got flashcards and those books you trace letters, numbers and shapes in from the dollar store. But last Friday, when we started with the flashcards, I didn’t know what I was doing and became so frustrated with him being bored (as I was to be honest), that I just quit. Then, the idea came. The zoo, The McWane Center and a lot of other places in our community are centers for learning, to be utilized by parents, and it also allows kids to interact with each other. How lucky if your mother took you pretty much everyday. Then maybe you would be more interested in doing flashcards, or perhaps tired at the end of the day, enough to be ready to lay down and go to bed. And boom, the decision was pretty much made, but I let the bank close on me before it was concrete. But it sat with me all over the weekend. Made me anxious and scared because it also opened up the idea that I could step back into something else I love and use it as a learning tool. Gardening.

Gardening is something I started before I had kids. I tried to do a little porch garden in pots for them this year and, well, it did inspire one thing in them. To eat leaves. Edible leaves of course, lettuce, kale, mustards. And that got me thinking, “if THIS makes you excited, because you can eat a leafy green you picked, instead of grass, perhaps learning your colors could be just as fun if you’re going to bite into all of them.” And so, now on this blog, I’ve decided to journal my children’s new learning adventures, and, on another blog I created, that has been dormant, CadieBeasGarden.wordpress.com, journal our adventures in gardening and hopefully inspire others to do the same.

I am a functioning Misfunktional Mami, and boy am I excited about the new ride we are about to take.